Three Little Birds

Bob Marley

Don't worry a-bout a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singing': "Don't worry about a thing, 'cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; saying,
"This is my message to you-ou-ou.”

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right."
Sayin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin'; smiled with the risin' sun.
Three little birds pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs of melodies pure and true; sayin',
"This is my message to you-ou-ou."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing,
oh! Ev-ry little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!
‘cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Meanin': "Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause every little thing
gonna be all right" - I won't worry!
"Don't worry about a thing, ‘cause ev-ry little thing ‘sgonna be all right."

(Baby) Don’t worry about a thing,
'cause ev’ry little thing gonna be all right.

Such a lovely song to sing to oneself and to anyone dear to you. ~Dizzy ~

Fear To Master

The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because of fear. We fear pain and death, which robs joy from life. And these need to be understood.

Take this:

‘’Personal, private, solitary pain is more terrifying than what anyone else can inflict.’’ Jim Morrison

‘’When your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song, and die like a hero going home.’’ Tecumseh

In everyday of our life, we learn from our experiences. We learn because we understand. When we fail to understand, then we fail to learn and again we do the same failure to ourselves which gives fear the chance to develop within us. This can be avoided if we take time to understand. When we fail, we take the experience and use it as our tool to do better next time. Only then, we gain strength, courage and confidence and conquer our fear. It is never about the absence of fear but the triumph over it. It is the judgement that something else is more important than fear. Fear is just a part of us. We are bigger than our fear so we never let it eat us. Remember: We are in control of ourselves, and that includes our fears.

Every brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who masters his fears. So when an actual situation is presented to you and you are asked, ‘’Are you afraid?’’. With your gained courage, you say, ‘’No. ‘coz when I am. I master my fear.’’

Master your fear bloggers. Don’t let it eat you!

~ Dizzy ~

Drive To Where?

Last Monday, I went with friends for a road trip. We had a point of destination but for no reason in particular. Since none of us is very familiar which road to take, we got lost a few times and worst we were fined from traffic violation. What a lousy driver and lousy guides!!! We left at 10 in the morning and got back home at 5 in the afternoon. It was fun after all coz maybe we knew we were being silly in a way. I am just glad everyone was cool. No whines. No hotheaded or time-spoiler. Only individuals who know how to handle troubles without losing the intended fun.

 

The worst that could happen in ones life is running around the field and never taking the goal. So to cover it up, we decided to have a goal - just to give our effort some sense. On our way back home, we dropped by to this wood shop and bought a few chopping boards. Seriously? Quite a goal but it doesn’t matter. It was fun!

 

Now,
Please meet our beautiful chopping boards. Hahaha

 

 



And oh, I did enjoy the view of the sky from the backseat.
Thank you to Sir Sigmund and Ma’am Anne for the ride, and to the easy-going Aileen! ^__^


Have Fun!!!

Soft Is Strong

Water is fluid, soft, and yielding. But water will wear away rock, which is rigid and cannot yield. As a rule, whatever is fluid, soft, and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard. This is another paradox: what is soft is strong. - Lao Tse

In my yoga practice, I learned yoga can give inner peace and strength both body and mind. It is a win-win approach to life. ~ Dizzy

Would I, I would

To have you means troubles and challenges
And to face each of these is my favorite
If it is you I get as my winning prize
I would conquer everything without a doubt.

To prove myself for better things I can do
And to go beyond my limits is as fun as flirting with you
If I soar high and you catch me when I fall
I would take you for a treat, you name it I got it.

To swim oceans and seas as deep or as shallow
And to fly higher and longer than any birds can do
If where I am is where you go
I would come running to meet you.

To dream and run as wild and free
And to relax side by side comfortably
If you keep me warm in your own blanket
I would give you my smiles everyday.

To things exclusive for you and me
And to what everyone can see
If you are proud being with me
I would say, "Let's rock the world, baby!"

~ Dizzy ~

Fire To Burn

Playing with the FIRE,

You get BURN.

Might as well take PRECAUTION.


~ Dizzy ~

 

Love Is All Around

written by Reg Presley

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
The love that's all around me 
And so the feeling grows
It's written on the wind
It's everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love you, I always will
My mind's made up by the way that I feel
There's no beginning, there'll be no end
'Cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I cannot get to thinking
Of all the things you said
You gave your promise to me and I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me in everything I do
You know I love you, I always will
My mind's made up by the way that I feel
There's no beginning, there'll be no end
'Cause on my love you can depend
I got to keep it moving
It's written in the wind
Oh everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it show

Sour Face Or Lemonade

Sour Face or Lemonade. Lemonade or Sour Face. Sour Face or Lemonade.

If people throw you lemons, it is either you wear a sour face or make lemonade. It is how you take it.

Or you can avoid the lemons thrown at you so you won’t get hit, but unfortunately it is given that you are not actually looking,  or you are but there are way too many lemons thrown from all directions at the same time. So remember, sour face or lemonade? Hahahaha =))

I am back to work and as I expected, I am bombed with queries on the phone by nice and let say, not nice people. One can never please everyone, but lemonade is nice and healthy. Have a nice frenzy day for the rest of the day! ~ Dizzy

Your Keen Lips



Let your keen lips
 send sweet messages
to myyyyyyyy ear canal!
^__^

~ Dizzy ~



Look Up For 3 Seconds

A Brilliant Strategy for ‘’Stress. Less.’’

There’s nothing like projecting an optimist mindset every time we plot our future and write down our dreams. Positive thinking is a key to achieving your dream goals, but in reality, it’s pretty much impossible to do it 24/7. You can’t be perky-and-perfect Little Miss Sunshine all the time. And, that’s okay. It’s a given that you’re going to have a bad hair days, feel crappy about work, go through relationship snafus, lose faith in the people around you, want to hibernate for a week, whatever. What matter is how you deal with it and face it head-on.

The next time a negative thought pops into your head, pause to take a second and close your eyes. Then tilt back your face so that it points at the ceiling (with your eyes still shut), and attempt to keep the thought in your mind. Try doing it now. It’s surprisingly hard, right? It will take a few seconds for our head to adjust to the new position, and whatever you were fretting about will suddenly go out of focus. Instead of trying to recapture your train of though, let it go. Pretty soon, things will start to, well, look up.

Think Backward

A Brilliant Strategy for ‘’Stress. Less.’’

Normally, when you think of a game plan, whether it’s how youre going to get a promotion, save for a vacation, or lose unwanted pounds and shrink a dress size or two, you think about what you need to do first and go from there. Totally logical…except it rarely works. It’s mental thing. Even when you’re super type A, when your brain sees a to-do list like that, it subconsciously thinks, ‘Shit I have a long way to go. It’ll take forever to finish this.’ – especially when the first steps are boring and difficult and seem barely related to your goal. As a result, most people get overwhelmed and quit. They get tired just thinking about it, so they just forget the whole thing. But if you think backward – making a detailed list from point B to A – your plan appears more appealing, thrilling, and doable instead of threatening.

So, let’s say you’ve been thinking of training for a 5k race. You can start your list with ‘’Cross the finish line.’’ Then, think of and write down each of the steps you need to take to get to the beginning. Maybe as you near your goal, you’ll be running for half an hour, but at the start, you’ll plan to run/walk for just 20 minutes. Yes, this list will be just as long, but because the fun and exciting final steps are right up at the top, you’ll feel motivated and eager every time you look at it.

Be Like A Coconut Tree

A Brilliant Strategy for ‘’Stress. Less.’’

Yeah it sounds like a lame assignment from a high school drama class. But, think about it: have you ever noticed a pine tree on the beach? Very rarely, and that’s because a typhoon would snap a pine tree in two – too rigid to withstand the force. A coconut tee, on the other hand, is strong yet flexible. It bends with the wind, and as a result, its more likely to survive and stand tall way after a disaster.

And that’s exactly how some of the most successful people approach life. When you encounter a challenge, where it’s a mistake at work, paying off a ton of debtm, getting over you ex-boyfriend, or even overcoming a personal crisi, the secret to coming out on top is being flexible. That means going with the flow of the situation and not resisting it at every ebb and tide. When you’re having a crappy daym, say to yourself ‘Okay, this is what’s happening, and it sucks…but I can handle it. I’m not going to break.’ This accomplishes two things: it instantly makes you feel in control, since you’re facing the situation instead of wallowing in denial and angel, and it replaces a negative thought with a positive one.

For example, if your boss criticizes you, don’t stew it over. Instead, acknowledge tat it happened, and take from the situation whatever helpful lesson you can. Adjust your working style id needed. Then forget about the rest. That way, you’re able to move on, so you can do a better job and kick ass the next time.

Reboot Your Brain

A Brilliant Strategy for ‘’Stress. Less.’’

When your computer freezes because you have too many programs running at the same time, whats the first thing you do? Hit the restart button. The screen goes blank, and the computer starts up again with no glitches. When you’re stressed out by all the stuffs going on, you need to do the same thing to your brain. Unfortunately, we don’t come with an on/off button, but there is a technique you can use to get the same effect. The good thing is, it only takes 90 seconds. Close your eyes, relax your jaw (it helps get rid of tension), and let your mind go black, like a blank computer screen. Breathe deeply as you do this, taking at least 5 long inhales and exhales, wiping every single thought from your mind. When you’re finished, your mind will be a lot clearer and less cluttered, and you’ll feel less frazzled and ready to start in again on your day.

Flatter Sincerely

Flattery Will Get You Everywhere

5 No-Fail Compliment To Make Her Day

Give her a smile that’ll stretch from ear to ear on any given day with these choice lines.

Sure, girls shrug off compliments (and sometimes, even have a hard time accepting them), but in reality, they never tire of hearing them. The best time to pour on the praise are when she least expects it – when she needs cheering up, wants to be affirmed of your love, or even after a big fight. ‘’I love my boyfriend knows exactly what to say when I need to hear it,’’ say Monica, 28. When the timing is right, bring out the big guns with the gems that’ll let her know exactly how you feel about her.

1.       ‘’Good morning, sexy!’’

No girl wakes up looking like she does on a night out. If anything, it’s the exact opposite – but she doesn’t need to know that. What she wants to be reminded of it how her beauty never fails to get you smitten, especially at times when she feels least pretty (like when she wakes up). ‘’Whenever my guy greets me with a compliment first thing in the morning, I end up with a stupid smile on my face for the rest of the day,’’ share Czarina, 25. Tell her sincerely how gorgeous you think she is au naturel, and she’ll be putty in your hands.

2.       ‘’I’ve been thinking about you all day.’’

More than the usual I-miss-you’s, telling her you cant get her out of your head in spite of your busy schedule makes this compliment super special. Go the extra mile by describing in detail what it is about her that you cant shake off. ‘’The sweetest thing my guy has ever told me is that he’s been replaying the sound of my laughter in his head the whole day,’’ say Beve, 24. We can assure you there are days when she does exactly the same thing.

3.       ‘’You look so hot in that dress.’’

Don’t let an awesome outfit go unnoticed. Looking ubber hot takes a certain amount of effort, but it’ll all be worth it when she hears how much you enjoy the great view. ‘’I always dress up on a date night, and I never get tired of hearng my guy rate the hotness level of each outfit,’’ relates Patty, 26. Showing her you appreciate her getting all dolled up will encourage her to look her best – and give you all the eye candy you want.

4.       ‘’I just love being with you.’’

Let her know how much she means to you by telling her there’s no one else you’d rather spend time with. At the end of a good date (or even a bad one), saying these magic words will ensure more fun times ahead or dispel any brewing tension. ‘’When my boyfriend tells me how much he enjoy my company, it makes me feel more connected and comfortable with him,’’ shares Nina, 23. Assuring her you love the moments you spend with her is a sure way to bring out her best side.

5.       ‘’You make me want a better person.’’

Compromise is necessary for the success of a relationship, but it takes a lot of understanding to get there. In the process, you’ll encounter some realizations about yourself and how you can improve to meet the needs of the woman you love. Telling her she inspires you to work on yourself will prove to her that what you have together is special and should be treasured. Of course, after that, you’ll have to let your actions speak louder that your words.

So who doesn’t want to be flattered every now and then? Even men enjoy flattery from women!

A little flattery ones in a while wont harm! ^_^

Seriously?? Whatta break!!

Sunday 11:00 A.M. I just finished reading and typing some articles I thought to note here which will be in my next posts. And I just prepared a huge box of popcorn – plain, no salt, no cheese ( to avoid extra fats from too much calories), and a huge cup of hot coffee with milk and brown sugar – added with 4 squares of my favorite dark chocolate. How is that for ‘’seriously??’’  Weird pair, but I like it anyway. Chill!!! I’m not having them both at ones!LOL

It is time to watch some movies with my comrade here, my laptop! It is nice to spend some time to do whatever you want. Just anything! Since my roommates are gone home for this long weekend (weekend plus 2-day holidays Monday and Tuesday), I have this room on my own! Time for some R-R, relaxation and romance with myself!!! :))

Yesterday, I watched Bourne movies – The Bourne Identity, Supremacy and Ultimatum, all in a row ‘coz guess what? I am watching later this afternoon on the big screen its new movie, The Bourne Legacy!

I am thinking,…It is going to be a blast, if Nikita (my favorite ass-kicker woman played by Maggie Q, whose 3^rd series in on-going ) and Jason Bourne will team up in either of their show. They are both rouge agents fighting for what they believe for. Oh Michael (Shane West), don’t be jealous though coz you are so damn cute and dependable, never leaving Nikita’s side. Two thumbs up for your team! ^__^

Alright, enough for Nikita mania. Another ass-kicking is playing right now.

Kick some ass bloggers!

Okay, okay, I cant help but update this. I just got home from watching The Bourne Legacy and I’d say ‘’Awww, Matt Damon where have you gone???’’ Guess that is why it is called his legacy. Seriously though??? They went to the other side of the planet in Manila Philippines to chase around???LOL Lucky Aaron (Jeremy Renner), you got what you just needed!!!

Matt did not turn up so I dated Jeremy!!!

‘nighty night!

Monday. So I thought to stay home the whole day and I did. I’ve just been messing around with my stuffs then I found 2 of my drawings some time in my college days out of bored moments while in a class. Now, I have them on neon too which I think is also cool :-D

I took Nemo from the topmost of the closet. I feel terrible for him, looking so dirty with dusts and some stains or something. I just dumped him right there and he got totally dirty. Well today when the day ended, he is looking really good after getting bleached and all, and when he is completely dry I’m just gonna wrap him up. Good as new again eh! I cant be bad to the poor thing besides I’ve been hugging it in my sleep for years. Just get dry my dear and I’ll keep you aside properly, for the maintime.

Tuesday.  A ‘’good morning beautiful’’ song by Rascall Flats woke me up as usual. It was at 7 a.m. but realarmed at 8, then I got up. I started playing  various songs on my laptop to listen, made pancakes and a cup of hot coffee for breakfast, washed a little and grabbed a book ‘’The Rainmaker’’ by John Grisham to read. Yesterday, I planned to walk around the walled city later this afternoon but as of this moment it is already 4 o’clock and I am seriously hooked up reading this book, which I am over 500 pages away before it ends. For hours, I am lying on my stomach nailed on my bed, reading this book and listening to my laptop crying. Another second passed and a thought crossed my head - I like this day. It is more like those days when I was in my room back in my home town which is two hours flight away. My room since I was a little where I sleep, clean, workout, hide, study, draw, et cetera and et cetera. And looking around this room where I am right now, it made me think - how on earth this place got the best of me for over 3 years. Tiny room shared with two kill-joyed people I just met here and loaded with lots of things, kitchen that’s composed of a single small table with a rugged cover and lame legs, and landlady’s ever unfinished damp walls outside with holes and cracks where creepy insects lurking which anyone can guess and its there. Seriously??? Well, I am already here so this is from where I’ll go to wherever. I could be out here soon. I just have to stay focused for clearer options and less crumbled mind. Alright, eyes back in court with this book and ears to my crying laptop.

It always needs some extra effort to spice up things a bit as days can be the same everyday. It can’t hurt, though it can leave you tired. The thing is, it is better than doing nothing and still tired at the end of the day. It is like squeezing lemon or adding honey on your cup of hot tea. Enjoy!

Stoned

I wrote this really short expression about a couple of weeks ago but I couldnt seem to draw something that would come perfectly with it. Today, when I saw this image below, I thought it would fit perfectly enough! It is crazy and I like it. :)) Thanks to whoever's art is this!

My heart rate is accelerating.

Episodes are fast changing.

I feel happy, sad and sexy.

I am stoned again!

~ Dizzy ~

Sistah Remy

Sistah, ………………. You are not really my sister, are you? Not a drop of blood that we are related at all. However, we are bonded by one of a kind beauty wahahaha and you are required to agree with me otherwise you will leave me here with everyone thinking I am stupid lol. Well, beauty can be defined in a lot of ways in various forms, but among us two, to me it is undefined ahahahaha make sense??? :D Well beauty is about attitude!!! I am truly blessed to have met and known you for you are such a diamond, a true friend that is hard to find. In life, it is difficult to find someone you care so much and who cares you back, genuinely. So, I will take this chance to thank you. I thank you. : )

And of course, this post won’t be complete without a photo of us two. So there you go sistah, boom!:-D

Oh, that photo is the only one I could find that seems to be so memorable. We had a quality time messing around!!! Though you did enjoy more than myself for some reason that ‘’ Mark’’ the history! Hahaha opsy!!!:-D We look silly in that photo but I totally love it!!!

Confession Letter

Sistah Remy, my dear,

This is an open letter so it is not password-protected lol Since you are not really quite a reader and you don’t chat much with me so I will make this post as quick and very short as I can, but unfortunately you know I meant the other way around so good luck reading. I hope you won’t be blue. lol :D

Lately, I know you’ve been wondering about my change in behavior online. It was very little but still it was a change. A change you knew by instinct upon knowing me that it meant something. I was cautious, in fact very cautious by making any single move coz I knew you would react or worst think you have offended me unconsciously. As I expected you asked me in a very deadly serious way and I told you it was nothing to do with you. I am glad you hanged on to what I said, coz you know how words do mean to me. I hold words with honor. Well like I said, humans are adaptable to any environment, so whatever change that occur and however people behave, we adapt. And after a while we are used to it. That is indeed, true! But to me you are not just some ordinary human, so I owe you some explaining to do to totally ease your mind. I know there is still a part in you I left with a question, which I am truly sorry for. I won’t say I did not mean to keep things from you, coz I really meant it. I want to deal with my own shits, til when I feel better I will tell you. I know, I barely talk or share about anything serious about my lovelife but I realize it is not as fun either. So here now, I am sharing it with you coz you do share a lot with me too.

For so many reasons you can imagine, I was sad since even before I left to Bangkok. I think my intuition works! I did not tell you coz I did not want to spoil your excitement for me. And I could think better with positive energies surrounding me and you were essentially one of those. Well a few weeks after I returned (from honeymoon as I called it LOL), we officially broke up. Yes, him and me. Yes, him. You got it right! I was broken and disappointed, even depressed. Some things just don’t last. It is painful to say goodbye to someone you don’t want to let go but it is more painful to ask someone to stay if you know they really want to go. So, be it. I don’t want to be hard on myself, nor be cruel to anyone when the world already has tons of that. What else I can say.  Give love, but never beg for it. I guess with that, I am the easiest person to get rid of coz I would simply go away anyway lol I know at some point in the future, I have to stand for something I would never let go no matter what, but as of the moment this one is not that something yet. Or maybe it is, it just needs a space - a boundless space like outer space? Well whatever kind of space. What matter is my space – sound and perfect, by my own imperfections! :-D

I know, I know, I hide fairly well, but here in my blog I don’t. This blog has been my buddy. You see this buddy has no feelings at all. It does not give a shit to whatever I say. It is like talking to a wall each time I talk my thoughts out through writing. I am not even a fan of writing nor reading! Tears were flowing from my eyes when you confronted me over yahoo chat while we were at work. You were saying if I was upset so on and so forth. You know yourself when you want something out but I understood you. And really I couldn’t blame you for that, even though at that time I did not need another someone special walking out of my life. Anyway, you know that the very least thing I would do is burst out crying around anyone or everyone. And crying in our office??? What the heck??!!!?? No thanks. I would only cry my heart and eyes out when I am at the comfort of my BMW at least hahahaha You know I am a crying head and I can’t even talk when I cry. I won’t make sense at all then:D lol. And to see you sad for me, it will definitely make me cry. Everyday! I just know myself. Besides, you have so much in your plate already so I got it! And you know I would come to you if I couldn’t handle things anymore. I am sorry sistah, this comes very late. I just wrote this over this weekend and thought over for another day just to make sure I am not missing anything to say.

Before it happened I already have accepted it but I would say for some other things I am still on the process right now. You will probably notice on my posts as you read them that I am taking my time. I am basically pampering and/or spoiling my feelings by pouring them all out in words. I just had to take everything out of my head to keep my super-valued sanity. This way is really handy plus I am making history hahahaha Well I’ll get on, you know me. In my recent posts, I’d say I got to play a little with my imagination which is a good thing. For everyone, they are not the award winning kind of work but to me they are. I am just glad about myself. As always I am positive with everything and right now my eyes are on opportunities I can possibly grab. Honestly though, I kinda lost interest being here in this city, but there must be something I can do to counter it. With the light shinning on me, from the Mighty above, as always I will be fine wherever I will be `coz I simply believe so. After you read everything, I know you will be as cool as ever. ‘Coz you are cool, my dear sistah. Welcome to my blog! Muah!

Alright, your little sister here tip-toeing leaving this post with a cheeky smile (^__^)

In My Head

No loitering, No vandalism.

No poking my cerebrum!

When you stay in my head,

Don’t cause any damage!

~Dizzy ~

Honesty

 “Every one of us lives his life just once; if we are honest, to live once is enough”.

Back from escapade

Alright, here I am just trying to do some arm works from the ballroom I was doing. It is like a wrap up time since I am leaving in the morning. Wednesday - last day at Ms. Anne’s!!! I am evicted from her house coz her fiancé is back LOL It was a really nice getaway to be in her house. I needed it too! So I left with a smile. Thanks Ms Anne! Hopefully we could still dance around some time!

Sometimes, it is good to be part of something coz when you are alone, every place can be a bit lonely sometimes. Sometimes! Okidoki, bye-bye for now! Muah, for my short escapade!

Now I am back to my own place, on my bed with my laptop. I think this laptop will be totally broken anytime soon. There is a white straight line right across the screen! I’ll keep you my dear lappy, til you have to rest for good. I’ll have enough to get a new one then but hang on for now while I am sorting out my budgets :D

Stucked

I am stucked inside the house in two days! Second day today! It is really mad outside - rain, wind, plus flood. I am not at my own place but at Ms Anne's, so for me it is kinda bittersweet. Her place is at the 25th floor of a building - away from any water coming in and is way a lot bigger than my own place but I jsut don't have all my stuffs with me! What can I do. I cant get out. I cant go home. There is no other way but to walk in the flood or worst swim! Works are suspended since yesterday and the rain still pouring non-stop which makes this city and other places nearby like a water world! Unbelievable. It is my first time to experience this since I got here in 2008. Hopefully tomorow, the rain will stop so the water on the streets and highways will subside. Then, I will be back to work. For the maintime, I'll make most of this chance being home (at least in somebody's home LOL).

The last 3 posts are some of my products from being stucked. And below are a few snaps I took outside. The sky is too heavy and low, I could touch them!

Unconquered

A poem I salute and share by William Ernest Henley.

Anyone could probably reflect their own experiences while reading this poem, and anyone would probably say, ''Yes, I am the master of my fate and I am the captain of my soul.''. Fate does not control us, we do. Things happen because of us, and not by chance. It is a matter of choice. Thus, every choice we make shapes our fate. Enjoy reading! ~ Dizzy ~

The night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

by William Ernest Henley

Balance It Out

 

HUG WORKS!!!

Hug, for Everlasting Glow

Something I have read and I thought to share, as simple and small things do really count. =)



Miss You

My world shakes when you go I knew.
I am left confused from here where I go
Without you, what am I gonna do.
I miss you.

The days are meaningless and tough to get by
And the nights are freezing without you by my side
Without you, my life is blue.
I miss you.

I can only love you in my mind.
An illution I daydream all the time.
Without you, I am empty.
I miss you.

I pamper my heart coz that is where you reside.
You breath for me within that last for life.
Without you, how will I survive.
Oh darlin', I miss you.

~Dizzy ~

In Your Heart

Happiness is not something you have in your hand.
It is something you carry in your Heart.
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Disclosure

I've been staying a lot at Ms. Anne's lately for her to have a company in her house while her kids are busy somewhere, her fiancee is away and me of course finding ways to utilize my spare time. I told her about what I wanted - going to Doha with my brother there and/or taking further education I wanted, and asked her for some helpful ideas which she generously gave me. She has explored her horizon and broaden her network from acquiring further educations (master and doctor of education, and researches and books completions) and from working a lot (as a teacher, dean, instructor, et cetera), yet she remained really humble, kind and funny. Furthermore, she is fun of me unbelievably. LOL

Well, every now and then, she would popped a question about my boyfriend or my lovelife. It has been a while since I told her it has ended and I did not speak anything else aside from ''it's complicated and i'd rather let it go to make things simple. Shit happens you know.'' , then she would just laugh and respect me for keeping privacy. Lastnight, I told her about it all and as I expected she is quite a listener - compassionate and objective. It's nice to hear words from someone elder, not because they are always right, but because they have more experiences in life from making wrong, right and risky decisions.

I told her, I wont close door for us coz I did love him, I still do love him, I doubt that will change a thing for a long time, I am not upset, I just can't be upset, and coz maybe I knew what I was in. To look for the positive side in every situation is what always keeps me going, though I also expect worsts as my guides to be better and to be cautious. To me, my relationship was like ''I wont care if other things would fall as long as I have keep it.'' That one thing I kept and was proud to have has failed. It was truly painful and still is, but it is for the best for him and for me.  Besides, if we are really for each other then one or the other will find a way, and/or time and chances will give way for us.  For now, I'm gonna make most of my time to upgrade myself in many ways and I know he will do the same for himself. I'm hopeful for the better. Later on, we will both benefit from our efforts, in our own separate lives.

Moreover, after a chat and a few emails, I have not heared from him again. Stopping just means something big which should be clearly undertood. It was harmless but I initiated which I know was not wise at all even if he was nice with his replies. I did ruin the silence in the holy space between us. What a bummer! Honestly, I like to laugh at it - at myself in fact. I'd just say it was just one of those days! Hahaha So who says - words must be marked? Ops, I did! And I'm guilty! I'm sorry bloggers I owe you one with that. Well kidding aside, I am glad he does more better things and stays more focused. If a man exerts effort, appreciate it, otherwise, let go. It is maybe the state of a woman that develops beauty in the life of a relationship but it is the man's that determines its life's span. Maybe I am a good thing as he said, a thought which I am glad to have been a part of his life, but still I am not a good enough thing. I am not sure what tomorow will bring but I'm gonna try fill what I think I need to fill myself.

We dont need to create complications to make life interesting. All we need is to engage into something we want to do and accomplish, and believe in ourselves. We can never know how far we can go and how well we can do. And always keep in mind, we are incharge of ourselves, for our choices and fruits they bare. They will just surprise us. Keep the fire burning coz life is what we make it.

So long!