Be Proud

Indeed!

I thought I betrayed myself from my previous post. I was not sure if I was being rude? Really? I did message him? Yeah, that was quite a betrayal to my own self. Seriously though, my face was red from getting too upset - about anything. I did not expect him to reply at all, yet he did. It was fun a bit, but fun from breaking words is short time. And I knew in my heart, it could possibly be the last talk we could have, so I had to end fooling around with myself. What for? I knew he prefers us not talking. In fact, in the morning I messaged him to confirm and guess what? I got no reply! Ha ha ha See what I meant? Well I'd respect that and I respect myself more.

Sometimes my pains hunt me. It keeps visiting me every now and then. I hate it but there is always something I can do. Can't hide my feelings and can't lie to myself. All that is normal. So I savor the view to each and every angle of the whole picture and just listen and listen and listen to myself, particularly my mind.

I feel better. Earphones screwed deep in my ears banging music in my ear drums, I no longer require, to overpower the roaring of my heart and stirring my thoughts to every direction, all causing me confusion. Perfectly faking smile, pretending to have a light-weighted heart and struggling to control emotion are all that I dont need to try.

There is nothing much I can say other than, ''I am truly proud of myself, I always am!''.

Be proud of yourself blogger! =)