Rambled Thoughts

Sometimes I think im thinking of you too much.
There is no day i dont think of you.
Wherever i go, whatever i do.
I dont think it is right but it feels right.
Any thoughts from good times to bad,
Vice versa and back.
They dont matter coz youre in each of them.
Call me crazy thats for free and see,theres no one can realy help me.
Coz it is only you i want to help me.
Is it too much to ever think u will talk to me?
And we will talk just the same?
That there is you and me still?
Did u ever hope of us always together no matter what?
Us? Was there anyway?
Did you ever think we were meant to be?
Even just for a second?
You said im your bestfriend.
I was flattered.
Was it for real? Yes?
Only for that particular moment, was it?
Am i too presumptious? Care to speak?
Will u care to talk to me and see me?
Will u even care to understand me?
Youre not ever here at all to tell me.
I dont even want to tell you all these.
I will never make things hard for you.
And you know its true.
But do you even wonder how am i?
If i am fine, do you care?
If not, would you ask why?
Sure, you are at peace right now.
With rested thought and mind
why bother to complicate things, right?
I want you. To be held right next to me.
So dearly and comfortably, finally.
Will you gladly let me?
Am i selfish? Self assuming?
Do u even want me that way too?
I only want to love and to be loved.
Dont hurt me. Im just a little child inside.
Why have you come into my life?
Tell me your intentions so i'd understand.
What do you want from me exactly?
What do you want me to do?
Tell me so i'd know where i went wrong.
Tell me to stay with you.
Tell me you are worth my fight.
I had been fighting.
Come on fight for us too.
Just show me its worth fighting for.
Then i'd continue coz i want to.
You freak me out but i love you anyway.
Wont you say ''i love u too anyway''?
With so much rambling thoughts in my head.
It shows in my rambled words.
Is there anyone who can even assemble?