It is my country's independence day holiday today and I tried to make it my independence day too - being single. I went for my dental cleaning appointment today with my brother John and his wife using the discounted vouchers I got them as gifts for their b-days. I chatted with them for 3hrs with my friend who went with us and I had so much fun.
I am tryin my best to reconnect myself outside, see my friends, make new friends, meet my family close by, schedule trips and any appointments, et cetera, to keep me busy and for the moment to forget my emotions. It actually works but I still get sad and sigh a lot at the sad thoughts when I am alone, but focusing on it wont help either. I am a fool if I'd say I dont need help, but not a shoulder to lean on, instead, a help to change my lifestyle. I want to leave this place where I am right now and change everything. I dont know exactly how am I gonna do it, but I'm gonna find a way. And oh God, please be my guide to make this possible.
To my ex-boyfriend, if any chance u get to read this, I know you are doing good and will always be doing good, so keep it up. I know you no longer care about me, maybe you still do a little, but it does not matter anyway. Our love is at the wrong time and place and maybe with a wrong a person. I don't hope if u will ever talk to me again but I'd pray tonight that we'll bump each other one day when we are both responsible. If never again in this life, then I will see u in the after life. Cheers!
Great Independence Day to everyone! =)
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