March 14, 2013. Thursday. 9 P.M. Yesterday, I woke up feeling like a
conqueror. I felt invincible, that nothing could harm or hurt me in any
possible way – not anymore. I couldn’t remember what I had dream before waking
up but whatever it was, it healed me completely. Very well then, I got up and
came to work, with a higher spirit. I thought to reply to my ex’s message sent
last week but he was not online. He was probably in an invisible status but I
don’t want to assume he was there. I don’t want to use a messenger spy to confirm
either. No big deal. I was not disappointed. Today, I seen him online as
‘’available’’, so I sent my reply. Then, he replied. We said the usual HI’s and
hello’s, a few minutes before his bedtime. Sadness was not felt, even longing
and hoping have already left me totally. And since he messaged me first, I took
it as he still wanted to communicate. And I’m not planning to know his
reason/s, if he has. Everyone is entitled for a communication, every now and
then, even a little. We were ones friends, we talked anything, laughed at
anything, stuffs like that, but love and disappointments came along and we
stopped being friends. It was overwhelming and I have lots to learn about
relationships. Now, what I can give in this chapter is my availability as a friend,
just like how I am with my friends. Truly, I am loving how I feel.
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