Persevere

February 2, 2013. Friday. 2AM. Before I leave reading and go to bed, I want to write some of my thoughts down to keep them in a secured and restful place – here. These weeks have been really toxic especially at work but I can’t complain, not because I just can’t but because I barely had a moment to think of anything else while busy minding one demand after another. Many things had occupied my mind and were exhausting at some points that I’m tempted to toss away everything off my hands and make a grand exit. (Applause!!! LOL) But at the back of my mind is a very cautious alert, reminding me to keep going as if a wonderful reward is just waiting for me at the end to be collected. I’m comforted by fact that despite the many things occupying my mind, my thoughts are well-organized and protected from any distractions. However, I would kill for fewer hours at work to spend for my research and assignments. LOL Damn, I’m trilled with my MBA! Quite a goal!

 

On the other side of my mind, a strong feeling can really change something and or someone. I realized that my all-time principle, ‘’Persevere while others quit.’’ has been thru a lot of tests. My lengthy patience has been affected which I re-measure from time to time now. I’ve been at all times reasonable towards everything, with my heart giving all considerations it can find and hope for. But it is bad when I have to dig out reasons before I could say I love this or that, rather than simply being blown away with a first thought of ‘’I simply love it!’’. Following my shortened patience, I become more decisive than I was before. I limit my considerations a lot now, and at some points, give nothing at all, as long as it’s easy in the heart too. ‘’It’s hard to take so much for so long’’ so I need to revalue my patience. It is something I love about myself and I don’t want it be broken by short tempers leading to sudden decisions without a thought. And I still hope a lot, but as usual expect nothing. Can’t spoil me, smiling – what else I can say? ^__^