The Parody of Four Worlds

~MY world, HER world, HIS world and THEIR world.

 

MY world is peaceful, secured and vibrant. She is cautiously shaped from her many adventures. She prefers to be on the road, looking through a window to reach as far her eyes can see, feeling everything in forward motion, perhaps, to run like a gazelle, to hunt like a tiger, and to soar like an eagle. In short, mahilig magsolo-flight sa maraming bagay ‘coz she’s fine by herself. Although, nakikisocialize din pag-may-time at pag-nasa mood.

 

HER world is close to MY world. And unlike MY world, she is more organized and socialized. Food trips never run out in HER world. In short, ideal na world ‘coz one will never feel hunger. MY world and HER world are in harmony.

 

HIS world is also close to MY world. He is filled with talents, no one can deny. Salute na, Bow pa. A world of an expert, that is! His world is filled with a rare kind of charm and confidence. He never runs out of silly jokes which MY world would buy without malice. ‘’Kulangot ka ba? ‘Coz you’re so hard to get!’’ ‘’Yikes!’’ Then, at one point, HIS world asked MY world to just please look him in his eyes. And she found herself out of breath (from laughing), but she admired his sincerity anyway. Ang cute cute pala n’ya pag-nagsusumamo ^__^ nyahahaha.

 

THEIR world is close to HER world and HIS world. They are much socialized and MY world often missed their hangouts. Although, she is the least socialized among 4 worlds, they became part of her adventure package – their presence, sensibility, laughter, jeering,… even the immaturity at times she finds quite fascinating.

 

MY world and HER world went for a food trip (as expected LOL). And she learned that HER world turned down HIS world months ago, discreetly. THEIR world doesn’t know. So MY world said to her, ‘’Guess, self-confidence can sometimes be a bitch.’’ LOL

 

Then, MY world tried to distant from HIS world. Even the Valentine’s date he pleaded did not materialized. But he is quite persistent and she simply hates avoiding (not her thing). So given the chance, during ng brown-out at cancellation ng classes, she decided they both needed to sit down and talk. Ito pa, during that day, ‘tsaka nalaman ng buong THEIR world about sa pagkabusted nya previously and of course asaran ang peg. May bagong topic!LOL

 

MY world, being considerate to three worlds, did not turn down HIS world but instead give him a condition to fulfill (In his own terms. Anytime. Anywhere.) before anything else matters. She wanted to give a man a break from his amusing heart affairs, thus, to prove himself to everyone. Kaya na nya yon. Kaya nga! ^__^ haha

 

Then, here comes a night when MY world felt wonderful being around HER world, HIS world and THEIR world. She was in the mood, enjoying the moment ‘coz she did not miss another hangout. At makabawi man lang sa Xmas party na na-missed. And just when she thought the night was going perfectly well, she was caught in between these three worlds! Whatda!!! But she would never compromise any world as much as she can. So she ran and disappeared from their sight, then shake off herself. She felt silly but it was something she had to do. Forget the big crowd of unknown faces and their merrymakings. Forget the booming music and the dancing lights. Forget about her exhausted look from the throbbing headache at sobrang sunod sunod na pagod. Forget where she was standing and whoever was looking. Sa may bridge, napapa-sh*t, napapa-iling, shaking herself, habang maraming nakatingin. Who cares?! Buti madilim. She just needed 10 seconds of herself, to be in her own peaceful world. Then, she went back to the big scene – the one she avoided the most. Awkward moment. (dot, dot, dot) HIS world was dying, asking her not to leave him. She thought he could handle THEIR world’s possible reactions. So she laughed it away and spoke for him. Damn! She needed a bottle of Emperador! Buti di sya nasagad. Or else, who knows, the outcome of the night could be worst. Haha Indeed, it was overwhelming and maybe it couldn’t be done in any way better.

 

One can never control everything. What would matter is how one reacts to the situation at hand. Well MY world is not sure if she handled the situation right. But it was the best she could do at that point. She felt relieved, there was no casualties between MY world, HER world, HIS world and THEIR world. She hopes for none anyway.

 

Finale. HIS world embraced MY world ng pang-wlang-bukas-na-yakap-award. Bigyan ng jacket! ^__^.

 

~ Dizzy ~

March 16, 2014. Sunday.

Beary Simple Hug (poem)

It’s amazing what a simple hug can do

When no flattery words can describe it

Or extravagant surprises can outshine it

It simply warms a heart and delights a soul.

It causes lips to stretch so wide across the face

Like a clown smiling all the way to the ears

Sometimes it looks almost hilarious

But doesn’t really matter anyway.

It’s a perfect way to show love and care

The heavenly gifts only hearts can revere

Dispelling all shadows on gloomy days

And giving ordinary days a best moment ever.

All I really have to do is stretch my arms

And wrap them tight around you

Geez, nothing can make me blue

When I am that beary beary close to you

For love isn’t love ‘til it’s given away

And a simple hug is a whole big lovin’ for me

It’s not just a display ‘coz I get to whisper

‘’Buddy, you mean so much to me.’’ ^__^.

~ Dizzy ~

Shock Absorber

March 1, 2014. Saturday. 5 P.M. At the library, disappointed from my last class’ early dismissal. The professor left us something to do though but… well, I think I want more thorough diversion from work pressure and other things that had come up. Work pressure is reasonably challenging as I expected and my brain has been working triple time! I couldn’t believe that each time I am home late from work, I would fall on my bed and pass out. On some nights, I had hard time to calm down my nerves and I couldn’t sleep despite tiredness. This morning, before my classes started, my mother called me about my younger brother’s pregnant ex-gf who is in the hospital and she asked me to check on her. As much as I want to get involved and clean up anyone’s mess, I just hate the fact that it’s my brother’s dirty mess. I just hate him for being a total jerk and it breaks my heart how I feel for him. How irresponsible of him, leaving a pregnant woman behind and I am supposed to embrace that?! Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I just don’t have the heart to do anything for it. I don’t want to be part of it. Will that turn me into a bitch? Ahh, help! I need an advice. I want to hear anyone babble about whatever nonsense, at least. All I want to do right now, is put down everything and sleep. Sigh. I despise people who can’t help what they have done and expect someone else would stand up for them to fix their crap. I find it terribly hard to be strong when I have to play as a shock absorber with their irresponsibility. It makes me wonder, if I would ever screw up, who will be there for me? Oh God, please, I beg, not to ever leave my side.

Dating 102(?)

February 22, 2014. Saturday. 8.25 P.M. These past days have been mentally and physically challenging and exciting from joggling work turnovers, overtimes, class presentation preparation and gym workout. Pheow! Now, I just took a short nap, still bothered with this little headache. It’s too hot today when I went out with friends at school. Well, regardless my headache, I feel great about today çoz I had my presentation presented really well this morning in the class. After hanging out with friends, I had a heart-to-heart talk with Clarence. We are at the same age. I just felt I had to talk to him and gladly it turned out okay. I have mentioned him previously in my post early last year when I started my MBA but never thought it will come to this. He said, he is serious about courting me but I sensed desperation. It all started from our first ever MBA class. He would throw me corny jokes and I would buy them all but sometimes I pretend I don’t to make him frown, then I would laugh. A typical Daisy towards someone I am not irritated with. He is approachable and willing to help when anyone in the class is confused about the subject matter. Sometimes he would sit beside me and make jokes. He is not at all my type of guy and I am fairly specific if I like a guy or not. I can hardly develop attraction ones I said to myself ''no not that one'', and he belongs to that category. So I would just go along with the moment, knowing he likes me and wont dare ask me out çoz I see ''fear of rejection'' in his eyes, which I am relieved coz I don't want to hurt a friend. I was sure I would turn him down and I still am. So we talk and talk corniness most often then, which I find hilarious, if not simply funny. It has been that way from then on. Today, I said I’ll give him a shot with a doubt that I would ever see him more than a friend. But giving a benefit of a doubt and giving him a chance to prove himself with his intention, I gave him a go-signal. On Thursday, we will hangout after my work and he said he has something for me for Valentine’s Day if only I have given him a chance to see him then. I was touched with his sincerity and I said sorry I thought it was just another corny joke when he invited me out for Valentine’s Day. Anyway, we talked about anything for about 2 hours this afternoon, after leaving our other friends with their drinking session. I allowed him to touch my hand, even hold it for a while but honestly, it felt so weird. Maybe because I just have no physical attraction to him. Clarence is I supposed charming but not enough to give me butterflies or something. Dwin was way more charming, like in a lot of ways. I really love his smile and his cheerful nature, but the last time we talked he had so much baggage to unload. I have been there but he will surely regain himself in time. I believe he will. Dwin came and went like a blowing wind, saving me from getting too attached and well, from pains. Clarence, on the other hand, I think wont last long. I like the way he looks at me, but I cant return him that. But again, I will give him a chance to express his feelings to me, at least for a while. I will be compassionate to him, otherwise, I would be harsh. I want to plant some ideas in his senses too çoz it looks like he has so much to learn about being in a relationship.

Looking deep into my heart, I’m ready for long conversations so I can emotionally manage this. This Clarence-thing doesn't bear special to me çoz this is more like for his benefit. I want to be generous by showing him some compassion. I have lots of them haha! I also see it as my way of returning favor to someone who does not pissed me off, yet. LOL Anyway, I have to be careful I wont hurt myself in this process. I promise I wont be writing ‘’quit dating 102’’ after this. Hell, No!!! Fingers crossed! Blogger, please keep me reminded! I know you will ^__^.

Sunday Memory

February 16, 2014. Sunday. 1.55 P.M. Sunday often, if not always, gets me. It happens when I am home with my two roommates who are accustomed to sleeping the days and nights away. A lot less mind-engaging days. Yes, I have clothes and uniforms to wash, nails to trim and polish, readings to catch up, presentations to prepare, and perhaps a new recipe to try. Still, I couldn’t help my mind wander into my memory bank. I am again overwhelmed (sometimes I despise it) having the ability to recall many things in full details, as if they were from 24 hours ago. My memory is quite sharp when it comes to events which I am involved in.

 

Sunday is special to me and will always be. I guess to most people it is, as well. It is time to relax, to hangout with friends, or family, or themselves. Well, I dated my ex on Sundays and the last dating-Sundays were with Dwin. Never mind my ex ‘coz I’m over him, but Dwin on the other hand had successfully casted a spell on me. LOL And I just remember everything… I wonder how he is at this very moment. I have a few ideas what he would probably be up to, and lying here on my stomach, working on my laptop, I imagine him in the garage working on his white car to be whiter, dating with his car for hours. Or maybe, he is hanging out with his family in the mall or somewhere. Regardless which or what he is currently engaged in, I am comforted with him in my mind. I am not annoyed ‘coz he is a happy thought. I could even fly high. I wonder if he remembers me at all, and if he does, what would it be. But most people, unlike me, naturally forgets events, so ‘’happy remembering’’ to me! I hope Dwin is feeling good today ‘coz he is making me another good Sunday ^__^. Alright, dizzy Daisy, back to your readings! ^__^.