Our background and circumstances may influence who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. We may screw up making choices but life is not about it, it is what steps we take to rectify them.

A NOTE TO SELF: Be calm. Seek your center, that's where your strength is. Breathe. When you inhale, you are charged with energy. When you exhale, you rid your body of tensions; relax. Don't think. Obey your instinct. ~ Isabelle Allande|City of The Beast

HAVE COURAGE AND BE GRATEFUL, ALWAYS... ^__^.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Chances: Its Reasons

February 8, 2014. Saturday. 11:13 P.M. Classes were dismissed early like the first days in the previous terms. But unlike those terms, I hanged around with Marlon in the campus. He was my classmate/groupmate last term and been visible in my sight since then. He constantly flirted me but in a subtle way. Today, I gave him a chance to stay close outside the classroom. There were some complications with class schedules so we went to sort it out, then to have lunch and to secure materials for our presentation next meeting, just us two. At the end of the day, he has to return to his original schedule for Business Policy (weeknight) and I will be presenting alone by next meeting then. I can handle the presentation alone but just when I decided to give him a chance and exerted effort into it, there is some cosmic interference. Alright Marlon, that's just it - I'm sorry. He is 1 term ahead of me and I specifically enrolled that subject(supposedly for the next term) so we will be classmates again but then again, I'm sorry. Chances has its reasons. We are better off as friends/professionals/networks.

We talked anything under the sun today and at some points my friends/classmates called him ‘’boyfriend’’, like ‘’hey daisy, your boyfriend came in looking for you.’’ I thought that sounds… charming hahaha LOL Well we talked about lovelife too and I learned he likes someone at work but feels insecure about himself. After two years of hanging out with her, she resigned at work and unfriended him since then (last year). He left her hanging, she said. When he said he loves her, it was too late to recover at that moment ‘coz by then she turned him down. During their friendship he was still trying to move on from his past relationship and he was uncertain being into one again. He admitted being a fool to let his past got into his present. Now he is unsure if he can restore the connection they had. But I told him, if he really wants to win her back, then do something before it’s really too late. Based on current facts he told me, I believe he still has a chance so I gave him some advices on how to win her back from a woman’s point of view.
 
Its funny ‘coz I also learned today that he is 31. My ex, Steve and Dwin, too. I wonder what is with 31 hahaha They are all turning 32 this year anyway. Nuts!!! Well my ex is a risktaker type and hormonal (lol).  I can always predict he wont hold on to his words ‘coz he constantly changes his mind. Steve is a conservative type. He is mature and expressive kind of guy. I could just simply adore him. Dwin, I believe is a bit of both. He is protective but can be really stubborn. Marlon admitted he is still a bit heartbroken from his past 1-year relationship three years ago and I was surprised. I guess it really is true that men couldn’t move on as fast as women do. Well, in general, and maybe because my past relationship was just totally different? Because I got brokenhearted a few times during it and somehow moving on from it became a habit?LOL I admit, at the very end, I still got really broken.
 
Anyway, again, chances has its reasons. When you have done your part and chances wont let it happen, then it is either the timing is not right or things are just not meant to happen. Learn from it instead ‘coz I am sure at some point/s in between, you’ve missed something. It makes me wonder what Dwin thought of me. I am curious ‘coz I have not asked him. But I know myself better than anyone else anyway. A part of me still hopes that Dwin would come up to me and ask me out again one of these days hahaha I am so silly!!!  You see, blogger, women are the relationship standards. All we can do is hint or tell men we like them and if they don’t like us back, well… its over. A man who likes a woman pursues her and not the other way around. Men are pursuer by nature so let their instinct do the job. And besides, I don’t play around as a woman so if I like someone I would make sure I am sending a signal he is safe to butt in.
 
‘’Alright, Daisy, get back to your books, you lazyhead!’’LOL Aye, Aye! ^__^.

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