Our background and circumstances may influence who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. We may screw up making choices but life is not about it, it is what steps we take to rectify them.

A NOTE TO SELF: Be calm. Seek your center, that's where your strength is. Breathe. When you inhale, you are charged with energy. When you exhale, you rid your body of tensions; relax. Don't think. Obey your instinct. ~ Isabelle Allande|City of The Beast

HAVE COURAGE AND BE GRATEFUL, ALWAYS... ^__^.

Monday, May 06, 2013

Distraction

April 5, 2013. Sunday. 11.4 PM. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh… I’m seriously out of focus. It is hard to focus. I can’t focus. The thoughts of him constantly rattle in my head, for days now. So effortless that I feel defenseless. My walls are down and I can’t seem to help it. Ahhhhhh! Unbelievable, how can someone affect me soooo much!!! My tears just gathered and fell….
 
I was fine… I guess this started when I recalled so much a few days ago. I and Remy stayed at Ms. Anne’s and we got to talk about my story. I was fine, but I guess in the process, it depressed me unconsciously. I’ve been easily distracted since then, even irritable, feeling sad without any reason I can pinpoint. Or maybe because, a year has passed and despite my tremendous efforts of trying to ‘move on’, I was wounded so deep. I got a forever scar… I hate this feeling I am feeling now.  I can’t even laugh it away.
 
I hope that through this post, these troubling thoughts will be rested. And my mind as well as I go to sleep.
 
Blogger, can you please give me a hug? (-__-)
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