December 17, 2012. Monday. 12.30.P.M I’m
back to work. I did not come in this morning çoz I continued for my
entrance exam, the essay part. Though I ate breakfast and have conditioned my
mood before going back to school, I nearly went blank answering two questions
in 300 words. Expressing my thoughts out on paper was like scratching my eyeballs
with a needle. I don’t know which was a better worst, today or last Saturday.
Today’s noise was louder. I was starting to answer the essay when the teachers
started to gather around me in the main table to discuss things among
themselves, louder each time and scream my brains out. That was unbelievable.
At some points, I thought that was very rude and insensitive of them and at
some points I thought that was a great challenge. All I could do was eyeing the
ball of my pen and burying it on the paper, wondering if they’d at all shut up.
After about 20 minutes, one teacher sympathized with me and I was transferred
to her cubicle, where I was 4 meters away from the undying babbling pairs of lips.
That was kind of her and I was so thankful. And the noise became bearable
enough.
I told Ms. Anne and Remy about it all
and they told me I’d pass regardless what’s the result ‘coz I am an income to
their school and an entrance exam is just for formalities. I’m not really sure
if I am comforted or worried about what they said to me. The school is
accredited worldwide and I don’t want to pass ‘coz they’d let me pass, but
because of my capabilities. On the other hand, I want to believe it was just a
formality - pay the fee, take the exam and never mind the result. What matter
is how well I do my projects and the whole course, just like what Ms. Anne
said. How the faculties behave around me while taking my exam, as if they don’t
care about my result at all, is somehow convincing. Maybe they were just
testing me? That the whole scenario was intentional? It’s maybe a yes or no. Well,
I’ll know the result on Wednesday. Let me pass or I’d break someone’s leg. Just
kidding! LOL
Well I better avoid December for any
future exams as everyone is occupied including me. But that was quite a mental
challenge. Fingers cross! ^__^.
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