June 26, 2013. Wednesday. 11 P.M.
Alright I’m talking! ^__^. These past days I’ve been talking to Steve, at least
while I’m at the office, working. And I keep my weekends and other spare time
for studies and myself. I’m still in the process of ‘’trying’’ to manage
everything with a little inspiration in it. Inspiration in a sense that I have
someone to get cheeky with and who enjoys it other than the usual friends and
family. Steve makes a good diversion from many things I have to focus for my
studies and work, my life in general. The good thing is he comes in handy. He’s
not stressful to be around and he’s an accountant so I can ask him anything I
want related to my studies! I can tell that he’s a caring guy and there’s a
chance I’d fall for him with my level of maturity and his. He believes in marriage
and he wants to get married, a lasting one – not a divorce candidate. I am
happy about it coz I want to get married one day with the one I’d love for the
rest of my life. It sounds cheesy but I do really believe in true love. One
thing I am concern about is, he’s afraid of having kid/s. I understand him from
his point of view but I love kid/s and if I’d fall for him and he won’t change
his mind about it, I’d be really sad. Looking back to my previous relationship,
it’s the other way around – my ex never like marriage and there was no chance
we’d ever get married; and he often tried to persuade me into having his child
even when we were still both students. When he got what he wished for from
other woman, and I joked of being pregnant from missing a day to take my
contraceptive pill, he told me not to give him a problem!!! Hahaha no marriage
plus no kids – just wonderful! What a powerful punch in my heart (-__-)
Now, I am not sure if I’d keep my
friendship with Steve. He is a nice guy, responsible and not hard to love, but
I don’t want to end up comprising one of the things that matter to me most. I
already did ones and I don’t want a repeat. It’s stupidity to place oneself in
the same compromising situation. I am just praying that if that happens, it’ll
happen with the right one – someone I can afford my weaknesses.
It’s very early for anything, but I hope
Steve is who I assessed he is! ‘Coz to me, being with someone ranks higher than
having any kids! ^__^.
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